The blond nurse, not sure if I've mentioned her before. I was in a little more of a ward environment, in my fogginess. She'd deliver the message. At times she'd brush my teeth, apparently some sort of pneumonia prevention. I can recall, oddly, the need of a bed pan. In fact on my brother in law and sisters second visit, I was desperately trying to use it. I remember being told they were outside. Not sure of anything else.
Now this must surely be fog, but it is my memory. The blond woman was watching another nurses 2 kids at her station. Needing attention and bed pan, I was denied. I sunk into another abyss.
I awoke in a war torn place in my bed. It felt like an office building. There were windows, I was sure war. On either side stood nurses in what I was sure was Mideastern garb. For some reason I felt I'd been convicted wrongly and they were going to give me a vasectomy. I was frightened as none spoke to me. At some point I recall being....rescued.
I awoke in a new room. Solitary again. But this was newer and the nurses spoke to me. As I've stated, try as I could to communicate, they simply couldn't understand me with the respirator in. This must have been my second week in either CCU or ICU. But they were friendly. In fact I remember one being aghast that I'd not been cleaned at all and took the time to do that. I was gratefully.
I had a nurse stationed outside of my room. I was now beginning to actually sleep, the sinking sensation had slowly, reluctantly begun to loose its grip upon me. Still without my glasses. Lots of blurs. This is what I seemed to know of my surroundings.
I was in a ward type. There was a desk outside, and something that seemed to resemble a walk in fridge beyond that. I began to think there was ice cream there. Odd huh? Still confined to bed, couldn't see, respirator, but glad the sinking had abated.
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