'I FOGOT HOW TO......"

     Sorry got busy but am back to continue.  Night of the respirator removal now continues.
     Carefully and cautiously, was watching my every breath.  Not to fast, not to slow, oh the things we take for granted in our daily lives huh?  Had an oxygen mask on, practicing my breathing.  A man from respiratory came in, rushed, for my first ever nebulizer treatment.  Essentially it was treatment to help my lungs, clear any fluid and such.  It is not painful, just a mist you have to breath in deeply.  He unhooked my mask and started the treatment and said he'd be back in a few minutes when it was done.  I was doing my best.  Now I'm not sure exactly what took place, I think I wasn't getting enough oxygen and had a slight panic attack.  Especially because I had to pee.  I rang for the nurse.  She came with 2 people and I was not at my best.
In my best panicky way I said..."I have to pee and I can't.  What's wrong."  mind you I am saying this gutturally and agitatedly.
"John!" she said sternly. "Never let anyone take off your oxygen, you JUST got off a respirator and do not want to go back on.  Do not do this again!  Also, you have a catheter tube, stop trying to pee, it will go on it's own." 
"oh...thank you" I said relaxing as she put the oxygen back on my face.  I don't recall seeing the nebulizer dude again that night.  And yes, once I relaxed, the catheter began to do its job as well.
     Finally the tube in my nose was to come off.  That did hurt a little.  I asked why they kept letting the green liquid go back in me.  "That has been your nutrition."
Never did ask why the Hell it as green.
     They started letting me have ice chips.  Oh the gloriousness of them.  I was cautioned not to have to many or I'd get sick.  And it could cause me to have to go back on the respirator which they said would not be good.  All they would give me is ice chips.
     I think another night started to pass, so lost in time when you're in that place.  Had some wonderful nurses.  Oh and I should mention that, with the nutrition tube explained, except for the color.  It made sense to me why I was still having the need to poop.
     At some point I rang the bell, and the 2 that were with the nurse who spoke to me above came.  I needed the bed pan.  They obliged me.  It didn't feel right and I mentioned it to me.  They said, I think gleefully, don't worry about it, if there's a mess we'll be the ones cleaning it.
     Well I was right.  Not only was it backwards, but one check was on and the other off.  Yup SPILL IN AISLE 1.  Was all in good nature.
     I still remember some stern conversation from one Dr. with glasses and 2 of the nurses of the pulmonary sort.  He really wanted me out of this room.  I remember his yelling at the other Dr. as well from earlier, hope I covered that.
     It was about me being out and taken off the respirator previously.  Before the meeting with the disenchanted rugby woman.  I still somehow thought that the room I was in was to be used somehow in an affair the hospital as having.
     I think I nodded off.